Oh My Crush!

OMG… I have a crush. He’s been my crush for the past four months actually.

If he was some other crush (like that Math instructor or my Physics major friend), I would come up to him and start flirting. But he’s different.

So my move is… nothing. Just stare at him, watch him when he’s not looking, daydream. Last night I dreamt about him. It wasn’t romantic or anything but despite my mom’s irritating wake-up calls, I still got up from bed with a silly smile on my face.

Yeah, yeah. For all those who know me too well, I’m not the type of person who would wait for a first move. I would make the first move. But not this time. With this crush, I suddenly turned torpe.

All I can do now is listen to him although most of the times I can’t understand half of what he’s saying, laugh at his jokes, wait for his car in the parking lot then run as fast as I could so as not to be seen, periodically scan his friendster profile to see how he’s doing and of course sometimes try to engage in simple conversations even if I already know what we’re talking about.

Hay already complicated life is made more complicated by this unsolicited emotions. I hate myself for crushing on him.

Sana naging suplado nalang siya like that Math teacher. Or super close friend like the Physics major. But no, he’s not supado. He’s a great guy. And I think that’s the reason why I’m so torpe.

Tomorrow I’ll see him again. I won’t try to lure him in a conversation anymore. I’ll just ignore him. Just ignore him. That’s a good start. Ignore him. Ignore him. Ignore him…